【爽】

今天考过国文了
很久都没那感觉了

源源不绝的灵感
因为
charles said'kalau u tulis tiga muka saja ,u boleh bungkui,n gt telur babi,at least u kena tulis empat muka surat arrrrr!!!!!!'
hahahahahhah
所以写了四面的作文
虽然好像写了很多没point的东西
虽然好像有少少离体了

但还是很开心
我写了四面

FOUR PAGES !!!
U NOE?!





tats all
wahahahhah！

death?？

我 不是怕死

只是
不想让身边的人难过

只是
还有太多的事还没完成



所以
在那之前要努力活着

You Were My Everything - Aviation

this goes out to someone that was
once the most important person in my life
i didn't realize it at the time
i can't forgive myself for the way i treated you so
i don't really expect you to either
it's just... i don't even know
just listen...

you're the one that i want, the one that i need
the one that i gotta have just to succeed
when i first saw you, i knew it was real
i'm sorry about the pain i made you feel
that wasn't me; let me show you the way
i looked for the sun, but it's raining today
i remember when i first looked into your eyes
it was like god was there, heaven in the skies
i wore a disguise 'cause i didn't want to get hurt
but i didn't know i made everything worse
you told me we were crazy in love
but you didn't care when push came to shove
if you loved me as much as you said you did
then you wouldn't have hurt me like i ain't shit
now you pushed me away like you never even knew me
i loved you with my heart, really and truly

i guess you forgot about the times that we shared
when i would run my fingers through your hair
late nights, just holding you in my arms
i don't know how i could do you so wrong
i really wanna show you i really need to hold you
i really wanna know you like no one could else know you
you're number one, always in my heart
and now i can't believe that our love is torn apart

i need you and
i miss you and
i want you and
i love you 'cause
i wanna hold you,
i wanna kiss you
you were my everything
and i really miss you (2x)

i knew you gonna sit and play this with your new man
and then sit and laugh as you're holding his hand
the thought of that just shatters my heart
it breaks in my soul and it tears me apart
at times we was off i was scared to show you
now i wanna hold you until i can't hold you
without you, everything seems strange
your name is forever planted in my brain
damn it, i'm insane,
take away the pain
take away the hurt
baby, we can make it work
what about when you
looked into my eyes
told me you loved me
as you would hugged me
i guess everything you said was a lie
i think about it, it brings tears to my eyes
now i'm not even a thought in your mind
i can see clearly, my love is not blind

i need you and
i miss you and
i want you and
i love you 'cause
i wanna hold you,
i wanna kiss you
you were my everything
and i really miss you (2x)

i just wish everything could have turned out differently
i had a special feeling about you
i thought maybe you did too
you would understand, but...
no matter what, you'll always be in my heart
you'll always be my baby

our first day, it seemed so magical
i remember all the time that i had with you
remember when you first came to my house?
you looked like an angel wearing that blouse
we hit it off, i knew it was real
but now i can't take all the pain that i feel
reach in your heart, i know i'm still there
i don't wanna hear that you no longer care
remember the times? remember when we kissed?
i didn't think you would ever do me like this
i didn't think you'd wanna see me depressed
i thought you'd be there for me, this i confess
you said you were my best friend, was that a lie?
now i'm nothing to you, you're with another guy
i tried, i tried, i tried, and i'm trying
now on the inside it feels like i'm dying

i need you and
i miss you and
i want you and
i love you 'cause
i wanna hold you,
i wanna kiss you
you were my everything
and i really miss you (2x)
And i do miss you
I just thought we were meant to be
I guess now,we"ll never know
the only thing i want is for you to be happy
whether it be with me, or without me
i just want you to be happy






i found this song accidently
now,i prefer to hear songs by Aviation
the way he rap
the bass of the songs of his
and
the content.......

另一个.泪流的夜

无知 原来 可以 是很幸福的
不用去承受那真相背后的残酷
不用去面对 豫伤



最近 弄清楚了某些事
复杂的心情 再 浮沉

i shed my tears twice
for the same reason
and i wont let tis happen for Thrice

所以
请原谅我的冷漠及L态
。。

爬格子比赛。筹备

爬格子比赛的筹备过程
Till nw.i really tried my best dy
虽然。有时会彷徨 不知所措
[经验不足的问题-自辨 下].hhahah

*sumthng i wan to tel
~i appreciate if 20th or 19 th d
xue ji wanna lend their hand.bt
remember.u r only 帮忙nt指挥 us to
do wad.I M THE PRESIDENT OF TIS
pagezi.NT U
~i expect most of the works cn be
done by 21th d xue ji as i hope
that v r nt going to be branded
"USELESS"by other

抱歉若以上言论激怒任何人
im very straight d lor.hahhah.babla

KL 游

07/6

最终，还是选择[去]
闷闷的开始 + 一直好像睁不开的眼睛
坐上了23号位置
辛好路程中又跟她聊一下不然闷死了
as al sleep lik pig jor...Zz..
reach ktm,tat jyiee 简直像在贬我 ,tel me v reach midvalley jor
tamama...who dont know thr is ktm station wor
After,v start shopping
-midvalley->timesquare->sungai wang
。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。
-rush back to the bus station
when reach the bus station later ......walau..that bus postponed dy ...
早知道先回去'扫'那包包
。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。
on the bus,hahahhahhhahahhh，sweet to flash back, kekekekekekkkk
。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。

回到t'loh
-my wallet left on the bus....aduixxx!!!!!!!!!!!!
->scold by my mom in front of jinyong..walau ..paiseh dao
->reach home dy also not yet stop scolding
-fortunaly,someone found it and sent it back to the counter.....amitaba

though tired till xxxxx
though that day end with parent's scolding

bt ITS WORTH.at last.i think


* jingye，不好意思抄了你的题目
想不到可以放些什么其他的了。。hehe

泪流的夜

Cry in the room
cry under the pillow
No body knows
no body heards
*bt her....hehehh

it's worth to cry for [it]
at least after this
i wont going to kill myself
again...

04-05-09

面对那十几天的年中会考
之前的颓废，错过的课程
彷徨，压力在这刹那倍增

开车兜风，希望能放松下来
边和她聊天，边乘着晚风
聊着聊着
才发现原来很多事我早已没再做了
~不再在凌晨起身温习功课
~不再拥有努力读书的冲动
~不再去在意将得到的成绩
~不再去在意别人的看法意见

还剩多少天的准备时间
还能再夺多少个优等






我不知道。

回礼

是朋友，会在背后指指点点吗
是朋友，回有什么不能当着面说的吗
是朋友，会说你没有尊严吗
是朋友，会不断的讽刺吗
？！








或许是自己过敏了*
或许真的是误会了

Double layer

actually it is a V-shape but i cn't show it via my phone's camera









The first time i tried double layer
以往剪了头发都被说感觉清秀了 ==
bt this time
no more 清秀was heard bt '很 yeng '
hahahhhha
爽到下~

Pulau Redang

20~22-3-2009

船才启航不到五分钟，水太浅，无法继续航行。。。。==








船夫把引擎扭力开大，结果还是"semua lelaki turun tolong tolak kapal"。。。。aisyek『照片=当然也有女生去帮忙啦』







Finally，reach our destiny REDANG PELANGI RESORT what a beautiful travelling spot!







The lovely pub in Pelangi Resort









Herecome's our three day scedule









Try to wear life jacket and also mask, preparing for snorkeling activities
HEhEHe..






'最后的晚餐'
Served with BBQ cuisine- lamb chop,chicken wing,potato,fish,fried noodles and rice.

-盘子上有块碳？！『是拷焦的番薯啦』hahahhahahah




在Redang岛的最后个夜晚。拍照，留恋。

-一对极可爱的couple参进来一起拍照。。。






22-3-09，6.52a.m 的 Redang 岛的天空








22-3-09，10.15a.m 再见，PULAU REDANG











[旅程中的种种笑话]
男人：来PULAU Redang 岛最大的活动就是推船liao啦。
（70++ % de passengers of the boat 下海帮忙推船）
。。。。。。


船上的甲板上钉着『12 penumpang sahaja』旁边也钉着 『please put on life jacket』
乘客对导游说：wei，那牌子写dua belas penumpang sahaja wor。。。现在好像超载liao 喔
导游对乘客说：所以才叫你put on life jacket ma。。。hahahahahah
。。。。。。

小黑（工作人员）：你们不要去那边，那边很危险，有很大只的鱼！
一群小朋友（旅客）：它们会咬人的吗？
小黑：噢。。。它们 is vegetarian de
。。。。。。


小黑：你们要看鲨鱼吗？
小朋友们：要！！！
小黑：这里有沙（指向海滩）那里有鱼（指向海）
鲨鱼=沙，鱼
。。。。。。


*
接下来的这个，是一位几够力废的朋友讲过的
应为有提及游泳（岛屿活动之一）
所以想要在这里提一提

A：你会游泳的吗？
b：我会一点自由式。
c：我会狗爬式。
b：狗爬式是酱的哦？
c：在水里像狗那样爬
废：我会鲭鱼式。
a,b,c：huh?!
废：头在水里，手“自由”滑动，然后头抬出水面，吐水，喊"HELP""HELP"
。。。。。。

【疲惫.heart.dying】

把心藏在角落
让角落的黑暗宁静
笼罩那曾经受伤的心境
不让人去看见留下的血
为它形个薄薄的保护膜
久了
灰尘粘上裂痕 填满
配角慢慢 慢慢的
带着那披着暗灰的心境
走到墙边
轻轻的呼吸墙外的空气
只能悄悄的感受人群中传来的感情色彩
不再把身躯置于墙外
不再挤进人群
不要让那用来填补裂痕的尘埃被吹散
不要被人群看见伤痕内的腐烂
不要再让泪滴涌出

沉默地面对一切
害怕再面对伤害
不要再让伤口破裂
不要连到墙边呼吸的勇气都被夺去

因为还想保存仅剩的尊严
因为已经不能再把头压得更低了。

14～15/03/2009

辩论赛中听到最美的句子
～不是每一段爱情的路都铺满巧克力及玫瑰花
by hualian (不肯定是哪一对了）
...... xD

排球赛

11/03/09
一天内应付三场小组赛
一天内承受三个失败
原来我们是那么的[差]

但 我绝不泪流
因为 我曾尽力

晴天的霹雳

今天
使用我队长的身份，指挥球员
但队长的身份也许只能维持到今天了

排球学会导师说他只会派两队出赛
要在我们这群华裔男队与马来队中进行选拔
然后将被选中的mix together组成一team
终于 我发飙了
为什么不要派三队
为什么之前不明确说明
为什么她说能派三队，你这西瓜却那么固执













what the FUCK !?

【可恶】

"你们出去也只不过是接受人家的羞辱"
"我没在笑你们，只是在笑这个事实"

厌恶 憎恨 所有预先判我们死刑的人

排球队CAPTAIN=???

排球队captain=？？？
只不过是一个代名词
拥有那不能挥使的权利
只会让肩膀上的担子倍增

光荣-能当排球队captain
生悲-拥有那无能挥使的权利
高兴-自认我的球技还蛮不赖
感伤-志同的球员五指可数

因为中学生涯中仅剩短短两年
因为想在这段路程里留下名望
因为知道要为自己做的一切负责
因为不想输得太彻底
所以我开始很努力
所以我开始很认真

但
Act as a captain
却让我害怕会遭到几多的略评
Did what a captain should
却让我害怕会失去球员，朋友

但一切却不能如愿
光荣-能当排球队captain
生悲-拥有那无能挥使的权利
高兴-自认我的球技还蛮不赖
感伤-志同的球员五指可数

难道认真真的很难吗
难道都没想过要描绘多些傲人的回忆吗
难道就不能给予合作吗
难道就那么的习惯被人吹嘘吗
？！？！？！？！？！？！？！？！？！

只想发泄心中的不满
绝无辱骂之意
可能会让你们觉得我很骄傲 自大
但一切只因为我不想输得太彻底

【配角】

不管再怎么努力
永远都不能得到相符的荣誉
默默地跟着他们的脚步
也希望大家能看见这耀眼背后
那略带灰色的影子
曾经
影子也很努力地为自己染上
鲜亮的颜色
认真努力的付出
但掉下的血汗
却只会贴在那洁白的衬衫
功劳一直都不被珍惜记得
支撑着胜负抉择权的配角
将耀光反射，点缀着每一项委托
最后的成功的喜悦感却让人们忘了配角的燃烧
受到祝福的永远只有先天条件特优的贵族
配角的感触只能与寂寞，孤单分享
心灵已被染上绝望的黑色
最终完整成为孤独的影子

为什么就只有他们能得到肯定
为什么我们的努力就只能换来汗水
为什么就不能试着行赏我们潜有的善美
为什么！
为什么？
为什么，
为什么。

Secondhand Serenade - Fall For You

The best thing about tonight's that we're not fighting Could it be that we have been this way before I know you don't think that I am trying I know you're wearing thin down to the core But hold your breathe Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you Over again Don't make me change my mind Or I wont live to see another day I swear it's true Because a girl like you is impossible to find You're impossible to find This is not what I intended I always swore to you i'd never fall apart You always thought that I was stronger I may have failed But I have loved you from the start Ohhhh But hold your breathe Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you Over again Don't make me change my mind Or I wont live to see another day I swear it's true Because a girl like you is impossible to find It's impossible So breathe in so deep Breathe me in I'm yours to keep And hold onto your words 'Cause talk is cheap And remember me tonight When you're asleep Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you Over again Don't make me change my mind Or I wont live to see another day I swear it's true Because a girl like you is impossible to find Tonight will be the night that I will fall for you Over again Don't make me change my mind Or I wont live to see another day I swear it's true Because a girl like you is impossible to find You're impossible to find

当
一切被掠夺
点滴甘甜回忆
是这孤独的生命
唯一剩下的支撑

或许拥有的
只是那存剩的碎片
但只要紧抱着
或许还能重获
那一季的温暖
。。。。。。。。。。


一旦
就连
那少许的回忆也模糊
无任何留恋
一切即被画上句号。

9/2/09-结果

teh kian ying,tay kian yoon,ragawen,yasmin sya...........

就像k说的
"结局已定”

没有被 任职 的理由
永远藏在 他们 心底
我已至上
无需更改
没有就是没有
只是
浪费了张照片
浪费了点墨水
本来
就不属于我
我不要难过

回首

这十几天 我把感触终结了 也整理了
发现 原来我是那么的[贫弱] [渺茫]

不帅 不富有 不会乐器 球打得不好 社交其差
我不可爱 也不会装酷 就连学习能力也慢

x日 大家在回忆着一起的过去
我无声 无参与其中 安静聆听只是唯一能进行的
曾经 大家一起的画面 其多 都没有影印我的影只
没参于的过去 不能参其评说
不得心得 无能狂笑 无能喜泣
哀怨 原来自己是那么的透明

上了中四
身边的朋友都变得好勇敢
勇敢地去填补自己的情感
突然
发现自己还是那么的萎缩
或许自己的条件真的不佳
或许没遇到吻合的费洛蒙
。。。。。。。。。。。

曾经
不服自己为何那么的不辛
也想过
如果再次重生
一切会不会 都更加的美好

但为了爱我的人
也为了我爱的人
我还是要
勇敢
努力
地活下去。

直凉

26-01-09-回外婆家

下午两点起程，大约半个小时就到了直凉。
车子行驶在大街上，我把视线移到窗外，从前陌生的直凉中学突然让我好怀念，怀念在这学校度过的四天三夜，怀念与大家一起度过的时光，一切一切。不断前进的车子，经过了那天外跑活动的地点，想起了我们一起闯关的情景。坐着一起分豆的那棵树下，用捡来的垃圾拼成模型的那个校门旁，还有你称赞我时 站着的那个角落，现在都 空无人行，占满的是怀念的曾经 曾经。

到了外婆的家，与以往一样，找了个位置就坐下，然后就是收红包 !!!hahahhhaha
接着，我们也到访了珍宝觉心灵〔山上的一个佛庙〕，当天刚好有转运的小小仪式。我也参加，希望这能让我牛年行好运。不！！！应该是年年行好运。HeHeehe....好像贪心了点点hor?
晚上—享用好像是叫xx泡菜火锅，[惨] 竟然“伤风”，什么味道都尝不到..............TT
之后 “玩炮”，不会，让六岁的表妹教，逊毕了................--lll

晚上一点左右到家，迷迷糊糊爬到房间，找周公keng gai
累到。。。。。。。。

{节目组组员密集}

24/01/09-第一次的小组会议

为了将在三月++举办的一项活动，身为活动重要性决择角色（节目组）普通组员的我，在22受到了组长的发送的密函，内容如下：
星期六有开会，
要讨论xxxxxx
不能出席请跟我讲
于是我找了xiao t,xiao t,xiao y商量如何到总社去 。
结论-xiao t缺席，大伙乘〔临时〕专车出发。

10++开会......
那小的超吊的，好像什么都对完的，若本人根据业鸿法哲，早就拍桌了，不过因为大众及个人利益，ngo yan!!!
12++手语练习.......
发现原来我还蛮强的，手语组的组员都不熟，我已经能倒反方向比拧了........ hahahhhhh

2pm++-回家
乘〔临时〕专车，超载又没算便宜，driver的脾气又超猛的，还爆粗发泄！我坐的位置=副驾座，一直要点头应酬，认同他的言语，害我回家还得搽yokoyoko，不然那颈酸到，，，

付出的金钱，体力，精神，脑力 希望一切努力会与美好结局划上等号

Babyface- [Nobody Knows It But Me]

Yeah
Wish i told her how i feel
Maybe she'd be here right now
But instead

I pretend that i'm glad you went away These four walls close in more everyday And im dying inside And nobody knows it but me Like a clown i put on a show Paint it real even if nobody knows And im crying inside And nobody knows it but me Why didnt i say The things i needed to say How could i let my angel get away Now my world is just a tumblin down I can see it so clearly But you no where around The nights are lonely and the days are so sad And i just keep thinking about the love that we had And i am missing you And nobody knows it but me I carry a smile when i'm broken in two Now i'm nobody without someone like you i'm tremblin inside and nobody knows it but me i lie awake,it a quater pass three I'm screaming at night As if i thought you'd hear me Yeah my heart is calling you And nobody knows it but me How blue can i get You could ask my heart But like a jigsaw puzzle its been torn all apart A million words couldnt say Just how i feel A million years from now you know i'll be loving you still The nights are lonely And the days are so sad And i just keep thinking about the love that we had And im missing you And nobody knows it but me Nobody, nobody but me Tomorrow morning i'll hit the dusty road Gonna find you wherever Ever you might go I'm gonna unload my heart And hope you come back to me The nights are lonely and the days are so sad And i just keep thinking about the love that we had And now missing you And nobody knows it but me